Thursday, July 6, 2017

Saving My Saviour


She saved me, from me, from myself, from my lost self, from my evil self, from my fake self...

All it took was a few smiles, a few laughs, a few transparent and open and sincere conversations... and she saved me...

It was quick, deep, profound, and real... Destiny in the making, as if she was sent for me... and I was meant for her...

She saved me, and I gave her back everything... so fast... that it was too good to be true!!!

My troubled self did not go away completely though... I struggled, up and down, back and forth, strong then weak, determined then lost, and more lost, and deeper lost…


She stayed the course, she stayed there for me, to support me and empower me, receive me after every failure and every mistake and every disappointment and every hurt... She was my loving and forgiving Saviour... Always...

But I kept on dragging my Saviour down, letting her down, hurting her, slapping her in the face, times and times again... not intentionally!!! But does it matter, intentional or not?!?!

How can you hurt someone who saved you, brought you to life, again and again... how can you fail to appreciate and cherish someone who gave you every good and every beautiful thing in your life…

But I kept doing it... Until my Saviour started falling apart!!! Yes, I failed her to that extent... Neither I, nor anyone around could believe it, or accept, or forgive me for it... I did not forgive myself either, and will never ask for forgiveness...

Instead, I changed course, I stood strong, determined to learn from my mistakes, and save myself, and her... Yes, I went on a mission to Save my Saviour back!!!

And I succeeded, for a while, then failed, back and forth... Because no one is perfect, no one can avoid mistakes and failures... To Err Is Human... But... Success after failure, I kept reminding myself of my true Saviour at the days when it all started, I kept getting strength and power and passion from the days when my Saviour was relentless, never giving up on me... I gained inspiration from her, to be strong, and make her strong again…

I saw things and felt things no one could ever see or feel… I lived it, touched it, loved it… Some around us never believed that either of us can be saved!! Some around us never believed any of this is real and genuine… And they intervened, they destroyed, they interrupted, they damaged, they harmed, intentionally or not, they did… Still, we believed in saving each other, in turns, together, one after another… And we kept doing it… Even at the closest moments to utter failure, when the evil company and the doubters predicted the end, even when one of us gave up, one of us always saved the other... and US...

Now it's my turn... I made it my undeniable purpose and priority, to save her, and me, and US... and nothing will ever stop me, whatever it takes, no matter how long it takes... For I always see it, the power of my true Saviour, in every song, every picture, every feeling, every memory, every emotion... It is there, and will always be there...

It is the power of True Love... That never ceases to exist...

And against all odds, Love Always Prevails...

To Genuine, Deep, and True Love...


Cheers everyone...

BISS